Feeling better

( i will be okay..)

Just now, my sis asked me something which i never expected she will ask about "him".. its quite a shock when she ask me about "him" but i answered her honestly that i m no longer with him.. its because of fate.. now i m holding back myself and put a border between me and him.. now its only up to him whether to accept the fact that we both are no longer together.. i guess this is what life meant to be.. even if next time, i might me a better guy than him or meet him back, its all natural and nobody can change it.. but honestly he really treat me okay all the time and put me at first instead of everything.. but what can we all do?? he doesnt meant to be mine.. so just let everything be.. and i cried when telling all the things.. i cried so hard.. till i cant talk properly and now my eyes are sleepy.. haha.. i really did feel better.. thanks to evon! family is still the closest to me from last time, now and forever..

and i know he will never let go of me.. i did tried to ask him to forget about everything and just be friends.. but he dont want to.. he insisting on the relationship.. sigh.. i guess its going to be quite hard for me to accept a new one next time.. coz my first love, i m very serious and we both just broke up out of no reason.. and i kinda scared to repeat the same sadness and sorrow. haiz..... No matter what, i will tell myself just to live on and forget about everything.. but of course i will not forget that my first love is "him".. and furthermore.. i cant understand why human get so "pak gua".. *SIGH* you will surely feel annoyed when people talk behind your back.. its just like so annoying and sooooo bad.. haiz...why human get so keipo?? is it coz they are jealous about me or bei song me?? haiz..

just hopping one day they will just die coz talking too much.. hehe.. ^__^