confusion...

i m confused... so confused... i reli dunno wat should i do.. i dun wana hurt him... should i let go??? perhaps its better... maybe he can find a better girl... he is nice guy... i dont deserve him...

everytime, i will feel i m using his money... i feel i love his money.. not him... i didnt tell him... coz i dun wanna hurt him... i reli dunno my feelings now... i m so confused... can sumone help me??? i reli dunno wat to do... coz... i hav to make my decision clear... i dun wan to get hurt... or hurt him... and most of all... regret...

i knoe i owes ask him to giv me this n tat.. buy me this n tat... i knoe he dun like tat althought he din say it out... i just cant control... i dun hav anyone to ask for... and... he is the only one i can ask... i cant from my parents... they cant afford it... a month just giv me rm30... issit enof?? i nid to buy all sorts of stuff buy myself.. i just dunno wat i wan... i cant control myself... i dun understand wats going on.. n wats wrong wit me???

i... hate myself... maybe its better i turn single again... so i wont hav tat king of thinking... i think... i m scared... i m so lost... i will be lost forever... maybe... i wont go out of it again... please help me.. tell me what to do... i wan a person to be like my parents... can giv me wat i can... the thing i wan its not expensive.. it doesnt cost over hundred...

i reli duno... should i break with him??? or... let it be??? i dunno... dunno... reli dunno... i hate my life... i dunno.... why my life so hard??? somtyms, i owes see my friends... hav a happy family... n quite rich... she can afford all things she wan... me... just poor... i feel so down... when go out with them, i often din eat or buy anything... coz i cant afford.... while... they buy n eat lots of expensive stuff... am i jealous??? or... wat??? is it the coz of my bad mind???

i m so confused... wat should i do????